Tuesday, March 20, 2012

The Waiting Game

I don't want to sound mean or bratty but I just have to admit that when people ask me over and over "WHEN DO YOU LEAVE?" it annoys me a little. Okay, maybe it's not the question, but rather their response when I say "Oh, well I've got about four months." and their real smiles fade and they kinda go, "Oh." and a fake smile returns with over exaggerated excitement. It takes about that long for a visa to be approved, if it ever gets approved. Yeah so I'm playing the waiting game. And I'll admit something else...it kinda sucks. However, as I am writing this post I know that it'll be okay. I'm sure every pre-missionary goes through this kind of anxiousness and annoyedness (that's not a word, but i'm still using it). I'm sure they all have this feeling of whenamievergoingtoleave or isthisstilltherightthing or ifeellikeimjuststagnantbutimsureitwillendsoon. It's just like with everything we go through. We need to keep pushing along and know that everything will be okay. It will all work out. I know it will happen. But right now it's not the right time. Right now I have other things I need to do. I need to enjoy the journey and in four months it will be the right time! Yeah, sorry this post is all about my feelings.  Sometimes you just gotta let them out!


Oh, and a few things to look forward to this week and to the months to come:

1) Parents come into town this week
2) Friday I go to the temple
3) Hunger games movie!!!
4) My BIRTHDAY
5) Chloe is home...finally!
6) Graduation
7) Virginia to see my sister
8) Black Keys concert
9) Southern CA to see Brooke and Cath (hopefully!!)
10) Girl's trip with my sister
11) Yosemite with the fam
12) Head to Brasiiiiiil for a year and a half!